Saturday, November 3, 2012
What can I do?
“I think of myself as an intelligent, sensitive human being with the soul of a clown which always forces me to blow it at the most important moments.”
-Jim Morrison
Geez...if this isn't the most accurate. Think about me for a moment. Think about all the encounters we've had. What's your opinion? I'm just this guy right? I like to play my guitar, ride my cycles, read my blogs, play with my kids. That's really about it. I have this verbiage that I use to communicate with people. This is where things seem to go odd. If I'm writing to someone, like I am here, I really go out of my way to make it sound like I'm actually speaking to you instead of laying down a bunch clinical facts. This means quite a bit to me. To be able to have you the reader understand what I'm communicating to you on paper is of ultra importance to me. If it comes across in any way other than my intention i.e. taken the wrong way, it means I'm not making my point or am not communicating effectively.
As for this quote by Jim Morrison, I think it sums up my hilarity quite well. I see myself mostly the same way. Then there's this part of me deep inside, that wants to go over the top and make it grand. Memorable. I've achieved that countless times. It's those important moments, the candid moments, the sad moments, when my optimistic and playful outlook flare up. I say something to lighten the mood. Either by joke or oddity and it's all over from there. True friendships are so rare with me. I'm guessing due to the fact that most people see me as a jackass and figure it best to move on and not associate with me. That makes me sad. Sometimes I actually bond and hope for a long lasting deal, but I seem to be too much and it all crumbles. For my friends that put up with me continually, thank you. For the ones where it wasn't meant to be, I got what I deserved. I guess that's just part of being the hilarity that I am. Kinda sad isn't it?
"What can I do to make you love me?"
-Andrea Corr
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Will-Very thought provoking! From my keyboard view, it sounds as though you are being very hard on yourself and or not realistic...despie being a Marine, I can count my true friends on one, maybe two hands! Send me an e-mail if ya want to chat some more!
ReplyDeleteBro.. That is precisely what I love about you... Your sense of humor and intelligence set you apart from the vast majority. I understand what you mean about communication, though. Completely. My pride is my words... Or vocabulary.. There is a perfect word for every thought, emotion or situation and it frustrates me from my core when I feel like I am not effectively communicating what I really mean... But you know, it's not always the speaker's fault... Sometimes, those on the receiving end are the ones dropping the ball. Think about it.. How many people only half listen to what others say? And with minds as bright as say, yours, how much harder does the average person have to work to stay at your speed? Some just cant hang.. It's the truth, and thats why some seem to disappear into the mist of the everyday. But you know who your true friends are. They try, even when it's hard. And don't forget about unconditional love... You have much to be thankful for, my friend. And so do I. =)
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